So this year for New Year's I have decided my resolution will be to write more. Whether on here or on paper I need to write more to get things out. It helps me focus and fix things straight in my mind. Also, I have a lot of time on my hands in my type of work, riding atvs or walking lines, to think. I think a lot and it would help to remember the important thoughts, ideas, and points of view I am going through.
Right now I am trying to get out anger and sadness I feel at a recent breakup/mess up involving a boy. I liked this boy and thought he liked me too only it turned out he also liked 5 other girls. What a jerk. I am finding it hard to have sympathy for boys especially those who are emotional wrecks and seem to be attracted to me. I had to leave a place of work over this and am still so mad. On top of all this the ex has decided to pull some shit where he thinks we are getting back together (not happening) and the ex-ex had decided to start beinf a d-bag again.
Also, I am getting ready to start a new job far from home. I am so tired of traveling and not exactly excited about this job. It's a monotonous job for a year working with a species I'm not really interested in. But I am trying to remember that I seem to always not like a job at first and then after a week or so I start to. A friend from my last job will be there as well so it will be fine I am sure.
I am just tired of traveling and ready to be home for awhile. It's just me being my moody, crazy self per usual. Which is why I am writing again to bitch, whine, complain, and moan and somewhere along the way keep my sanity.
