Ying and Yang or Catch up on Days of Happiness

Day 5 Thursday, Jan 28th

Happy: Getting to leave work early and fly home for my friends wedding!
Sad: Bad turbulence on the airplane when landing. (Flying makes me sweaty palms nervous and being thrown around wasn't helping)

Day 6 Friday, Jan 29th

Happy: I got to go shoppiong with my best friend and hang out with her alone. (She is my best friend for a reason. She makes me laugh and really understands me.)
Sad: Finding out I would have to pay a shit ton of money to the hospital to get my tonsils removed. (Day stay, Anesthesia, pre surgery testing, pathology lab)

Day 7 Saturday, Jan 30th

Happy: I got to wake up next to my bf and spend the day with him. This included hanging out with B and going to my favorite restaurant.
Sad: Finding out I couldn't go to the wedding I had been excited about for months because of the snow. (The one I bought a $200 plane ticket for) Also, getting in a major fight with my mother over it and other things.

Day 8 Sunday, Jan 31st

Happy: Eating at a Long John Silvers for the first time in a long time.
Sad: Having to leave C behind to go back to Alabama (one of my least fav places right now).

Day 9 Monday, Feb 1st

Happy: Waking up snug and warm in my bed under a pile of blankets.
Sad: Finding out C had a seizure and passed out right before his surgery. Feeling worried about him all day and wishing I could see him.

30 Days of Happiness: Day 3 Kerry's shop

Day 3: Kerry's Etsy Shop

My friend Kerry who I have known since college has started an etsy shop to show off her beautiful creations. All of her pieces are made by hand and inspired by nature. (In her working life she is a plant biologist).

Find her shop here

The prices are very reasonable and she even does custom orders. I love these:


I own a pair of these in green:



and think these are absolutely gorgeous:


Also, follow along in her biology adventures here: wildlife girl

30 days of happiness

Can I do 30 days of happiness? I am guilty of always looking at the negative things in life and never seeing the good things til they're past. I have a habit of being somewhere and looking back at a point in my life and saying "Those were good times in my life. So much fun and much, much better than where I am right now." At the time though I probably thought it was horrible. Its hard to remember the good times and so easy to remember the bad ones.

I live a lot in the past too. So this is also an exercise to try to stay in the here and now. To stop rushing forward to get through something I don't like. To stop, look around, enjoy, think, and be present. So everyday for 30 day I am going to try to write the things or to post a pic of the things that made me happy today.

Day 1: FL: good friends and good times at GEER Conference

Ichauway

This is something I wrote awhile ago on another site but I have been missing this place so much lately I decided to post it here. Also, I decided to post something a little bit more positive since I am usually very negative on here.



Someone told me I would miss it when I was gone and I do. I miss the people and the environment and living there. Below is the list I made for fun in no particular order:


Things I miss about Ichauway:

1) Smammals
2) Sarah and Coffy House girls as roomies
3) The EWCA
4) Hanging out of Lindsey's car, drunk, singing Your So Vain, at 3 a.m.
5) See above except insert Stribling's song
6) Dance parties
7) Parties at the Dub
8) Watching BSG, Grey's Anatomy, and Charmed repeatedly
9) Listening to angry, blasting music with Cristina on road trips
10) Smoking cig-rats
11) Calling Cristina Tina
12) Making Paul mad because we're STILL not ready
13) The look of terror on rats' faces when I chase them
14) Visiting the Boys' trailer
15) Making cookies with Bestie
16) Float trips
17) Family dinners
18) Rearranging things in Scott Wiggers' room
19) Threatening to punch Brent in the baby maker
20) Bizarre conversations in the wildlife truck with Gail and Cat
21) Free internet access
22) Walking across the yard to visit Z and Stribling
23) Making Dawson Smith feel uncomfortable
24) Ganging up on Christen with Tina'
25) Making Scott Wiggers mad by bringing up the John Wayne thing
26) Being a packaged deal with Bestie
27) Only living 3 hours away from Corina
28) Benji's songs
29) C-larkay's skills as DJ

Highs and Lows

So my mom thinks I am depressed. I think she's right. I'm not eating or sleeping right and I just don't have the energy for anything. I can't seem to get out of this funk. I don't know what is wrong with me. I am trying to get rid of negative vibes in my life. Work was so stressful right before I left and I just couldn't take it. I came home for a vacation and its like those negative vibes followed me right back here. Between my friends and my boy I don't know what's going on. People just don't seem to have the time for me and I can't seem to find the energy for them. I'm going back to Jekyll early to escape these vibes but I am afraid they'll follow me right back. I'm so sick of this A Team vs. B Team crap. Grow up people we're not fifth graders. I don't understand why people want to be like that. I'm not a Buddhist or anything like that but I do believe in karma. I try so hard to send out positive vibes and happy stuff but all this negative energy is killing what little energy I do have. I just don't know how to fix myself anymore.

So I am back and never happier. Although as it turns out as soon as I got out on the road my friends started calling me. Where are you? Why did you leave already? What are you doing tonight? But here makes all the difference. I am sure once the kids come back it might be wrose. I might be depressed again and feeling screwed over. Now though? I feel like I belong with a great group of girls who like to hang out and chill. Just doing the things I would normally do at home and be antisocial by doing I can do here with a group of people. Most of the time that's what they are already doing. I love it.

D called and we made up so I guess that's over. She had some news about my ex ex bf. What an asshole. He's pissed I didn't give him my new number. After 5 months of him not picking up the phone, calling, or returning phone calls, 4 months of me not even having a phone, and then 3 months of having this new phone its only now he realizes that I've changed my number. Maybe if he was a better friend he would have known before now. He has the nerve to bitch about me not being a good friend cause I didn't tell him about the new phone. Jerk.

Definately feeling better though. The karma here is good. I hope it stays this way. I feel we have weeded out the negative influences and now things should be a lot better. It's a good time to start over.

I haven't talked to my boy in forever but oh well. He was starting to get on my nerves anyway. Plus, he didn't have time for me even though he knew break was the only time I'd ever get to see him. You know since he's moving across the country and all.

I can hear the ocean outside the door. It's so soothing and peaceful as I write this. I really couldn't be happier right now.

Apple Butter Festival

I've been feeling really bad lately. I have got an awesome cold and sore throat. I get sick every year except for last year because of being in nice, warm TX. So this is a nice welcome back to the land of real winter, Jennifer! HAHAHAHA!!!! (That was supposed to be winter or WV talking) I hate it. I only surface out of my drug induced sleep to eat and occasionally pet the cat who seems to think that laying on my face and purring is the way I will feel better. I hate getting sick because for me it usually ends in bronchitis or pneumonia because I am stubborn when it comes to doctors. You go and waste all your money for them to say take some over the counter stuff you'll be fine but then when I don't go it ends in the worse way with me severely sick and usually in need of antibiotics.

Also, this weekend is the Apple Butter Festival. It sounds dumb I know but its a whole big event centered around the making of Apple Butter- it's a craft show, carnival, parade, and party in one. It's a lot of fun and I usually go every year dragging my friends from "the city" down who can't get enough of the small town quaintness. There's almost always some sort of partying going on as well. Last year was the best year ever with all my very best friends at a kick ass party that lasted well into the night, riding my nephews crotch rocket, and my friends buying out the patrons in wine, apple butter, and other nifty items. This year I am sick, most of my friends are away or not talking to one another and the majority of us are broke. I still think I will have a good time if I can rally myself into it but nothing will compare to the ultimateness that was last year.